I decided to write this in English that everyone could understand it.
These numbers that I'm thinking right now are driving me crazy! 10 months in here. 2 months left. 1 month to travel. Many of you might be curious about what happens after it. Well, let me tell you the answer.. I'm gonna be an au pair in somewhere in Europe. During that time I'm gonna find a place to study and get a degree that's not going to take more than 3 years and after that I'm coming back here and staying here. Yeap mommy, you read it right I'm staying here.
I'm distressed and sad about leaving here. The time really is running out and I can't do anything to stop it. I could make it slower by making it boring but that's not what I want to, I want to live here. I found my place, let me stay here, please. I've met so many awesome people from all over the World and saw places that many Finns just dream about, but I'm not done with this country. I'm not even done with this area. I wanna see more, fall in love more (if it's even possible) and live the life I wish I had.
As you can see, being au pair might give you a lot. It might even give you a direction for the rest of your life. During these ten months I've learned a lot new sides of myself. I've grown up as an human though the little kid inside me is still alive. I've got rid off most of my bad habits and I love the person I've become. The last but not least I've finally done something that I want to do instead something that other people expect me to do and be succesful in it.
My host family is awesome. I've got many new friends and I believe that with many of them I'm going to be in touch for the rest of my life. The area I live in is one of the best that au pair can end up (if you don't think about using money). The local people are warm and friendly and they're smiling! I'm going to have big problems to get used to Finland again. I actually don't think I'm ever going to get used to it again. Right now the biggest feeling in my head/heart is just distressing....
